They Keep Calling It the Year of New Beginnings

Sometimes you get overwhelmed. And then sometimes you get fed up. Then sometimes your name is Quinnton and that happens to you almost on a daily basis. But then you live, you learn and you get Luvs. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this blog right now. I guess "I just felt like it" would best describe my motives. Moreover, with the lengths that I have stretched myself to in order to attain perfection recently and over the past 23 years, I think that's probably the best reason that I could've done anything. I have someone in particular to thank for that epiphany but I dont want to get ahead of myself.

Perhaps I started this blog because this really is a new beginning for me। For the first time in my life, everything is not laid out in a solid plan 5 years in advance. For the first time, all points are not connected with straight lines. Hell, some things aren't even connected at all. I feel like I just took a handful of red pills and this ride is scary. Still, thanks to that special someone I'm actually able to enjoy the ride for what it is. Pretty much my entire life, I have tried to be perfect. Please note that I did not say that I have been a perfectionist. "Perfectionist" is a trite term that people use in those job interviews that I hate so much.

"I would have to say that one of my strengths is that I'm a perfectionist and I pay very close attention to detail. Conversely, I would say that that is one of my weaknesses as well, because sometimes I can pay too much attention to detail and lose sight of the big picture..."

GAG! Please dont get me started on the Establishment, as it are... But I digress. I'm not your typical perfectionist that wears it as if it were some gold star on his forehead. I'm talking perfection to the point that phrases such as "It doesn't matter" and "It's not that bad" do not exist. Get into THAT. I've lived my life majorly trying to be perfect in order to make other people's lives better, so now in this "Year of New Beginnings", major things in my life have been flipped upside-down; I'm being forced to roll away the boulders of my past on which I have carved my niche and start life anew, with a more realistic outlook.

What is this happiness thing really all about? I guess I'll find out after I take a peek through the looking-glass... it only gets better from here...